10 days post-op.

I am having a hard time sitting at the computer typing away. Some updates. My surgery went well. I had to wear a splint for a week, which was uncomfortable, but I am really appreciative of it. I believe it helped keep the swelling at bay, as well as my chest in tact. The problems were that it cut of my breathing slightly, as well as was itchy as anything. The splint came off a week after the surgery. I had not seen my chest prior to this. I was laying on the table, nervous, as my PS removed the large wrap. He told me not to look until he said it was okay. The removal of the bandages seem to be extremely painful, but I think it may have had something to do with not knowing what was going on. It is really strange to have someone pulling tape off in this situation. I kept expecting the incisions to open up. That has been my biggest problem. I have an anxiety disorder and an over active imagination. There were many a nights spent awake, imagining the worst going on under the bandages.

So, my doctor finally had me sit up, and instructed my to hold the gauze over my areiolas while him and the nurse helped me get into my sports bra. He told me I could look at that time as well. The first thing I noticed was my hands shaking like crazy. Then it dawned on me that my hands was the first thing I noticed. Not my over developed bosom. Tears sprung up to my eyes, I glanced up at my PS, grinning like a fool, looking back down, exclaiming, "those are my boobs. They are so small!!" I almost hyperventilated. It is unbelievable to see myself with a small chest. I have been large for over half of my life. The sleepless nights, the uncomfortable week, the nausea, the upheaval of normality, it is all worth it. I can hardly move and yet my movement is already less inhibited. I can't wait to be healed enough to cross my arms!

One thing I have noticed a significant difference is in my Arnica intake. I ran out of the capsule/granules, and I felt a dramatic difference in my overall health. My body really started to feel the ache of the surgery. I would strongly recommend taking Boiron Arnica Montana pellets. To be honest, I have not tried any others, but these capsules are fantastic. I had no idea how much they were doing until I ran out of them. I have the gel for when the sports bra comes off and my incisions are closed.

I have to wear the sports bra for a week, then I go in top get the rest of my stitchs out. I am very excited. It is a strange thing to change your body shape such as this. It takes a bit to wrap my head around.